Kevin Gates almost committed Suicide in 2020.
Kevin Gates was the latest guest on the Big Bank and DJ Scream’s Big Facts podcast for a new interview where he revealed something he never told anyone before. The 35-year-old New Orleans rapper revealed that he thought about committing suicide in December 2020, but a fan talked him out of it.
“I’ma say something on this interview that I’ve never said before,” he said. “December 10th through the 12th was the hardest for me [last] year. See, I don’t do the, ‘Man, I’m bout to kill myself!’ I don’t want no attention. I don’t do no horse-playing, that’s horse-playing. I was gon’ – you know, the way of the samurai. Just smash myself because I was to the point I ain’t wanna live no more.”
He continues, “I wasn’t happy. As men, when you a provider and you not feeling like you being celebrated in the proper manner, you feel like you only being tolerated… when I was in the streets I used to hate going home because I felt like I wasn’t welcome there. Y’all act like I’m just doing what I’m supposed to be doing.”
“I had a raw letter that I wrote about everything,” he explains. “I was just saying, I don’t regret nobody I ever stepped on. If I did, your momma ain’t raise you right. I wrote about how I’ve been in love before and had my heart broken. How the first woman to ever break my heart was my mother, and the only woman to ever love me was my grandmother. After I did that, I went in the gym, worked out, took a shower, put all my jewellery on. I looked at myself in the mirror and said, ‘It’s time to stand on that business. Ain’t no more talking.’ So I was like, ‘Yeah, let’s go get it done.’
“White boy walked up on me, kinda big, I see him in there a lot. He said, ‘Can I approach you?’ He like, ‘Man, your music the only thing that make this crazy world make sense.’ I was like, ‘Man, the world’s a cruel place. Trust me, I know.’ He was like, ‘Man, I was worried about you because you had disconnected your Instagram and your Twitter. The world needs you because your music done kept me from committing suicide so many times.’ I say, ‘Listen, I swear to God, right now I’m bout to go push my sh*t off. You the only one I’m telling.’ You know what that dude do? He cried and he grabbed me and he said, ‘If you do that, so many people gonna take their own life ’cause you all we got.’ This shows you how God works through people. I said, ‘You know what? I guess I’ll stick around a while.’”
Before deleting his Instagram account, Gates celebrated the birthday of his newborn daughter, Islah, in Cabo and shared a video of himself holding and rocking her, believing it would be his “final time seeing her.” When asked what motivated him to commit suicide, Gates stated that he didn’t feel “celebrated” at home and that emotional anguish from his background was weighing heavily on his shoulders.
Watch his interview below.
Kevin Gates Details The Moment He Wanted To Take His Own Life In December pic.twitter.com/FGwnAItK3I
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