Ab-Soul shares details of attempted suicide in a new interview.
Ab-Soul made his return to music and released his first album in six years “Herbert“. As part of the promo run, the TDE rapper recently sat down with Charlamagne Tha God, and share details of attempted suicide, when he tried to take his own life by jumping off a freeway overpass in Carson, California.
“I pretty much finished the album before I did what I did,” he said. “How I’m choosing to take it is, and I’m not giving it credit — but it brought me down to a place where I needed to be as vulnerable as possible, and as soon as I said everything I needed to say, I jumped.”
He continued without revealing the exact time and reason behind the suicide decision. “I took a leap of faith, if you will. And that was the only way I was going to be able to put that vape down, bro. Ain’t nobody going to rehab for a damn vape pen — sh*t expensive as hell! But that was the only way I was gonna be able to put that sh*t down, bro. I know that for a fact… I feel as though God sat my bi**h-a*s down.”
“I lost my teeth,” he share the injuries he suffered. “This is a flipper, I ain’t even got my implants yet. My jaw’s f**ked up, I got a lot of work to do still. My foot is completely reconstructed, all the way to my pelvis. Everything but my knee. It doesn’t even make sense that my knee wasn’t affected. My femur, everything was affected except my knee.”
“If my knee would have been affected, I might not be walking. I did not get any brain damage. I jumped off a freeway overpass, man, it was about 50 feet. I think a car broke my fall. No brain damage. It’s God. That was, ‘Alright bro, now sit down and shut up. Take it all in. Relax. You blessed, man.’”
“I woke up on the ground. ‘Oh yeah, he still here,’” he recalled. “My first thought was, ‘F**king idiot”‘ I woke up on the floor, bro. Yanked me up, I passed back out and woke up in the hospital. I literally walked from my mom’s house. It was kinda cinematic, too. [I was] on Del Amo Boulevard, my street. The subconscious me was trying to make this cinematic. ‘Oh, he died in Del Amo. He was the king of Carson, oh my god’ It was cinematic, you know what I’m saying?”
Despite without specifically mentioning his suicide attempt, Ab-Soul discussed somebody else’s struggle with the act on the track “Book of Soul” from his 2012 album Control System. “And as much I wanna cower, bid the mic adieu/ And fall off a f**king tower tryna find you/ I gotta stay ’cause I remember that day/ I looked you in the face and told you: ‘Nothing can stop me, not even you’,” Ab-Soul raps on the song.
Herbert, Ab-latest Soul’s album, is due to be released on December 16th and features Big Sean, Russ, Joey Bada$$, Jhené Aiko, SiR Punch, Zacari, Fre$h, Ambré, ALEMEDA, and Lance Skiiiwalker. In terms of music production, he collaborates with Sounwave, DJ Premier, James Blake, Hit-Boy, Boi-1da, and DJ Dahi, among others.
Check out the full interview below.
